Anticipation

It has been a whirl wind week.  So much has happened in the last seven days that it is almost like I am dreaming.  So......Avery hurt his elbow....... again last Sunday.  Throughout the course of the week he met with 3 different doctors.  After much discussion, reviewing medical images, prayer and fasting, the decision has been made to release Avery from his mission 2 1/2 transfers early.  Everyone felt that he could get superior care back home and since this arm is his dominate arm, we did not want to take anymore chances with it. I have had mixed emotions.  I am ecstatic to see him!!!  I am sad that he did not to experience a transfer coming home with other missionaries.  I am SAD that he did not get to bear his testimony to the new missionaries that are coming in.  But I know that he has completed his mission and that he did it honorably. I am SO EXCITED that I get to have all my babies home for two whole weeks.  This is something that is totally unexpected and such a HUGE BLESSING!

So, this leads to the anticipation.  I have had this happen before.....I feel much the same as I did when I anticipated his birth.   I had so many ideas in my head of what he might be like.

• What is he going to look like?
• How much will he weight?
• Will he have ANY hair?
• Is he gonna come out butt first? 
• Will he be crying.....will I be crying?

I feel like I have had a 21 month labor with this one.  Avery was about a month early when he was born.  Sometime babies arrive a little earlier than others, but they are loved just the same, maybe just a little bit more.  I think I might see a pattern with this one!  This just feels like this is his rebirth.

Anyway, tomorrow we are having an induced labor.......I remember I was up all night laboring with this one before I gave birth....I have a feeling that this will repeat itself........the up all night part......anyway.....I just can't wait to hug on this boy again!!!